The Contradiction within us
February 6, 2011
You take a deep breath…you try and step out of yourself for a moment to try and re-imagine things, reinterpret them, disassociate from the guilt that expectation places upon you. You try and feel the wind on your face, close your eyes, look for another moment away from this one, somewhere where things were better, where you encountered true happiness, like a trip to the beach with waves crashing against your feet.
It warms your heart a little and then you are back to fight some more and start facing the same sh*t all over again.
See the constant struggle of the circle of life is inside of us. Its the infinite battle that rages within us, asking us to define and then redefine ourselves. The yin in us tries to bring us to a place, where the yang tries to dissuade us from. The pointlessness of it all is brandished repeatedly in our minds in this constant struggle between the two contradictions within us. Just like the feeling that most of us get about being different and just like everyone else at the same time.
Images of grandeur mock us, the sense of our worth confuses us and utmost helplessness we feel diminishes us. One by one we give up on things we once stood up for. One by one we re-prioritize the priorities using a scale we never thought we would use. Thing like material worth, greed and drive for possessions replace the measures we once believed in such as fairness, civility and humanity. We are consumed by the very world we once found unbearable and pretentious. Shakespeare was right, this world is indeed a stage where we will rage, flicker and disappear, but whilst we are on it….the show must go on. Because whatever our impact or legacy might be, we are only here for the show and will no longer be here to evaluate the merits of existence and judge whether we lived a pointless or purposeful life.
For us there is only the show, it is the sum of our being, the only culmination that we ourselves will ever know.
